Dreadful Sunday

Two Sundays ago was my first Sunday here in St George in our new ward. Jon still has to work on Sundays so I got ready and went by myself. I sat on the side of the chapel in the smaller benches. The church was packed since there were a lot of baptisms the night before. Not one person came and sat next to me. I had the whole bench to myself. An old snow bird couple who sat in front of me said hi and introduced themselves. I felt so uncomfortable! After sacrament meeting I left. In the parking lot going to my car April and the girls were driving to go home. They said Hi and I almost started crying cuz I felt so lonely. They said that I can go to church with them and the girls invited me to their promary classes :) it was so nice of them. So I decided that I was going to go to their ward, since i have been there a lot, until Jon can go with me to church.

The next Sunday I decided that I better go to my ward since i needed to pay tithing and just try it one more time. I me the 1st counselor of the bishopric. He was so sweet and kind and welcomed me to the ward. I sat in the middle section this time up towards the front. Once again I sat by myself and felt so awkward. nobody sat next to me once again. Right before it started, like right before, Someone comes to my bench and says "do you want some friends?" I turned and it was Drew and the girls! They missed their sacrament meeting so decided to come and sit with me. What a wonderful SURPRISE! I didn't have to sit by myself! If felt so nice. I don't think I have ever had to sit by myself in a place where I don't know anybody, like ever.
After Sacrament the youngest one Breanna (8yrs old) said that she would go with me to Sunday School so I wouldn't have to sit by myself. What a sweetheart! So me and her go and sit in the RS room in the back row and keep each other company during the lesson. You could tell her attention span was gone and she was ready to go but she didn't complain once. After Sunday School I thought that I'd better take her home. I stayed a bit and introduced myself to some lady in my row and asked her who the RS pres was so I could introduce my self. I did that then Nana came home with me until Jon arrived then we went to Apes house.

I am not the same person I was growing up. I am ok being alone and not having close friends anymore. I like solitude and I am not very outgoing. If I feel comfortable with who I am with I am outgoing but I don't care anymore. I like it with just me and Jon you know and I am used to that. We don't have any kids and we are not newly weds so don't really fit anywhere. Maybe if I found a friend I could trust or something I wouldn't mind going out and doing girl stuff (Ape you don't count). So having Nana with me at church and the rest of her family was a huge blessing. It helped me get out of my comfort zone and meet new people. The RS was so nice and talkative. I am excited to be in this ward. But I did find out that some people think I am a new member and that Drew and his girls are my family...It will be funny once Jon starts coming to see what the gossip will be...maybe I will introduce him as my boyfriend lol

So I think on this 3rd Sunday here I will stay for all 3 hours :)